Regret

Idk what made me take some classes with my sister..I love her but she is a pain..She acts like my mother and I hate that...We are both adults and would be nice to be treated like one..Plus people think we are joined at the hip. Like we are suppose to be together all the time! But I see her everyday in the house..I really regret taking classes with her..I've definitely would never take anymore classes with her..I should have went with my gut and change my classes when I had the chance but its too late now 

Moving out

I am so ready moving out of my parents house. I feel like im being smothered. Its not that I dont love my parent or my family but I just feel its about time I leave and become my own person. Im 21 years old, it about time I move..I just need a nice paying job so I could save up and find me a place. I know my family feel like im not ready to be  on my own, basically they dont think im not "responsible" enough..That really hurts to know that my family doesnt think im not ready to be own my on..Well I just have to show them that I am ready to be on my own..In all that I just hope I move out soon

School

I'm soo nervous/excited about school. I have all my books which I ordered from the bookstore. The only thing I don't have is notebooks which I'm not really stressing about. Oh yeah I have 3 classes with my sister. I feel like I'm going to regret having these classes with her but not really because me and my brother had classes together when we were in grammar school and one class in high school. It was okay but I felt like I couldn't do nothing because they were trying to rule me. And I hate being ruled and being told what to do. Anyway school officially started Friday but I have class on Wednesdays and Thursdays!! And I will be working on my days off..Well thats it for now..I'm thinking about making videos from time to time when i don't feel like writing..Its still a thought.. Later!!

December Update

I can't believe this month is almost over!! Well here's a little update of whats been going on in the month of December. Which hasn't been nothing special. All of done this month is school and work and Church..My life is not that interesting just to let you know.. School is over and I'm super duper happy..I've been waiting for this semester to be over every since it started..Isn't that sad? I think i did well this semester went pretty well..I just didn't do well in one class but oh well..Anywayyyy Christmas is in two weeks and i'm excited..but i'm not going to get into detail about what i'm doing for Christmas right now..Well I guess that's all for now..Til next time

Tired

I don't know why everyone is going against me right now, I'm tired of feeling like the black sheep, I'm just tired

I want to feel the Love

There are days where i don't feel loved by my family, I know that they love me but someday i just feel like the black sheep of the family. Its like I was adopted sometimes, I just feel like i don't belong.Everything I do always is wrong or bad. I just wish that one day I could feel like I belong in my family all the time

Change

I always say I'm ready for a change, but I never change..but I always find myself going back to the same thing I said I was going to leave..I can never live up to what I say and that sucks..I can't wait for the day where I finally act out what I say