Natural Hair Rant (again)

  Although I'm not fully natural yet I'm having my doubts. Well I will say set backs. I thought about getting a relaxer sooo bad. But then I had to really stop and think about why I want a relaxers. I guess I'm just use to getting the "creamy crack" that I was just willing to give in. Okay, I have a hard time with my family mainly my sisters and mother when it comes to hair. I believe that is the root of everything. I'm the type of person that wants to make everyone happy but then I will be the one that ends up sad because of I wanting to please them. But who is going to please me?! My sisters believe I'm going through this phase of "finding myself." I mean what is wrong with that? I'm young and I have my whole life ahead of me; with me finding myself my hair is part of this journey.
   I honestly don't see what is wrong with natural hair. All they keep telling me is that your hair is going to be nappy, you're not going to have any type of curls, and all this crazy stuff. I guess I'm just frustrated with them. I have to come to the point to just tune them out. I have no idea what my curl pattern going to be, but whatever it is I will love it. I've been inspired to keep on going from reading my favorite bloggers, and watching natural hair videos on Youtube, and simple pictures of women/girls with different natural hair textures. During this journey I've learn to love myself from head to toe. I've never felt like myself with my relaxed hair. Does that sound weird? I know that I'm making the right decision for me, no matter what others may think.
   They keep asking when you cut your relaxed ends off what are you going to do? To be honest I really 'don't have no clue but I know I'm going to find ways. That's why there are  Youtube videos and blogs to help me along the way. I believe they're just as curious as much as I am. I'm nervous but excited to welcome my kinks, coils, and curls to my world that God had gave me.

*The more I look at natural hair the more I understand why I chose this journey, is different, beautiful and so versatile. I felt limited when it came to my relaxed hair that's why i've never felt like i could be myself. These women with their natural hair are beautiful in every way. I just want my family to see my kinks, coils, and curls are beautiful, *

XO Cel